So i am not really sure with all that took place that night was a good thing or a bad thing, but i do know it shaped me into the person i am now. There for i leave with a quote from the famous
Maya Angelou.
Saturday, September 6, 2014
Reminiscing
Reminiscing with a friend yesterday about change and how and why people change, brought a conversation about my life when we lived in New Mexico and all that i/we were going though at the short time we lived there. I look back at the type of person i was then verse the person i am now. I know i use to share a lot and depend on people a lot, complained a lot etc. Until i had a conversation with a friend who saw me as weak, to depended and always negative etc etc. I took that conversation to heart. I actually cried a lot during that conversation that night. I can honestly say from that conversation i am no longer dependent on people. I don't ask for help, i am closed off and i don't put myself out there as much as i use to. I have become self dependent and self reliant and everything else that goes in that category. I know i also don't let myself get to close to people like i use to.
So i am not really sure with all that took place that night was a good thing or a bad thing, but i do know it shaped me into the person i am now. There for i leave with a quote from the famous
Maya Angelou.
So i am not really sure with all that took place that night was a good thing or a bad thing, but i do know it shaped me into the person i am now. There for i leave with a quote from the famous
Maya Angelou.
Thursday, September 4, 2014
4 1/2 years later.
After i rediscovered my blog today, i reread my two post and it's amazing how much i can say my life has really changed in 4 1/2 years since i have wrote those. I can't even begin to say how much different things in my life. For one, i am 4 1/2 years older lol. My kids are older which is hard, because in a few short years they will be gone from my house and on to wonderful lives of their own. But for now i will hold them as close as i can for as long as i can.
I am still as busy as ever, it seems like more so now that my kids are older and into sports, dance, etc. We have moved and my husband left for a 1 year deployment to Korea. Boy is that ever hard, but thankfully we are half way though it. I sure can't wait until he is home for good and we can get back to a normal life.
Best of all i have a handful of really great amazing friends in my life that God has truly blessed me with. I mean i have always have had some really great friends in my life who have came and gone and in all different seasons of my life, sometimes for short periods, sometimes long periods, some who are still in my life and forever will be. I have friends who i can truly count on no matter what situation should arise. Now do i still long for that one really great once in a lifetime friend who i feel so close to, who i can laugh hysterically with, cry with, one who get's me, and i get her and we feel more like family then friends! absolutely. Will i ever have that friend in my lifetime i have no idea. I do know for a fact since my post in 2011 that i have friends that care deeply about me and love me for me.
I am still as busy as ever, it seems like more so now that my kids are older and into sports, dance, etc. We have moved and my husband left for a 1 year deployment to Korea. Boy is that ever hard, but thankfully we are half way though it. I sure can't wait until he is home for good and we can get back to a normal life.
Best of all i have a handful of really great amazing friends in my life that God has truly blessed me with. I mean i have always have had some really great friends in my life who have came and gone and in all different seasons of my life, sometimes for short periods, sometimes long periods, some who are still in my life and forever will be. I have friends who i can truly count on no matter what situation should arise. Now do i still long for that one really great once in a lifetime friend who i feel so close to, who i can laugh hysterically with, cry with, one who get's me, and i get her and we feel more like family then friends! absolutely. Will i ever have that friend in my lifetime i have no idea. I do know for a fact since my post in 2011 that i have friends that care deeply about me and love me for me.
Rediscovering my blog
WOW! I can't believe i forgot that i had a blog, or at least started a blog. Maybe i thought i wasn't that good at it so i quit. I don't know i can't really say. All that i know is that i am kind of glad that i did find it, but the way i found it is ironic. Here's how i found it.
Today i rediscovered my blog link in an old FB message while trying to reconnect with an old friend that was on my mind the last few days. So you try to reach out to them though the wonderful world of FB, you end up finding old messages between you and them, messages that you thought you deleted, or ended up getting deleted when they deleted as their friend. It's amazing that you can go back into an old FB messages and reread your old conversations between the two of you.
It's been 4 years since I've talked to this friend, and i am not sure why she has been in my thoughts and on my heart lately, but i when with my heart and tried to reach out to her to let her know that she had been placed on my heart and that i have been thinking of her. With the wonderful world of the ever changing FB you now can see if someone reads your messages so i know she has read it, now if she responds it's totally up to her, i won't force anyone to be my friend or in my life for that matter, but my heart is always open and will welcome anyone back into my life. I am the most forgiving person and care deeply for people, sometimes to much that i get emotionally hurt more times than i can count. As for now i will leave it as it is. She knows that i was thinking of her and that i am still alive. My life will go on if she chooses not to respond, i will continue to be who i am and love the ones that i do have in my life right now and choose to be in my life.
Today i rediscovered my blog link in an old FB message while trying to reconnect with an old friend that was on my mind the last few days. So you try to reach out to them though the wonderful world of FB, you end up finding old messages between you and them, messages that you thought you deleted, or ended up getting deleted when they deleted as their friend. It's amazing that you can go back into an old FB messages and reread your old conversations between the two of you.
It's been 4 years since I've talked to this friend, and i am not sure why she has been in my thoughts and on my heart lately, but i when with my heart and tried to reach out to her to let her know that she had been placed on my heart and that i have been thinking of her. With the wonderful world of the ever changing FB you now can see if someone reads your messages so i know she has read it, now if she responds it's totally up to her, i won't force anyone to be my friend or in my life for that matter, but my heart is always open and will welcome anyone back into my life. I am the most forgiving person and care deeply for people, sometimes to much that i get emotionally hurt more times than i can count. As for now i will leave it as it is. She knows that i was thinking of her and that i am still alive. My life will go on if she chooses not to respond, i will continue to be who i am and love the ones that i do have in my life right now and choose to be in my life.
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