Sunday, January 16, 2011
It's been awhile!!
So it has been awhile since i last sat down and blogged!! so much has been going on that just keeps me busy!! And i thought i would have all this time to do what i wanted once i had all the kids in school and now that i am done with school!! BUT i don't!! or maybe i waste most of my time doing things i shouldn't be doing!! like on FB most of the day!! when i should be doing housework or what not!! BUT that is so boring to me.. Once upon a time it was fun i loved keeping my house in tip top shape, no dishes in the sink, no laundry to be done, no nothing!! i always kept a nice house just in case i had company!! BUT i never had company, no one to just drop by to have coffee or shoot the breeze!! even to this day i don't get company, no one pops by just to say hi!!! Don't get me wrong i do clean my house LOL! I guess what i am trying to say is!! I miss having friends!!! really great friends that i have not had in a long time, i long for the days when my life will be filled with great friends again!! friends to go have lunch with, friends to go have spa days with, friends to go on mini vacations with.. I once had a really great group of friends, more friends than i ever had in my life and they were great friends even though i was not a great one to them in the beginning but i had a great change of attitude thanks to one of them friends that i still talk to, to this day even though she is far away! but the other ones not so much, and that is painful i miss them girls but i sit here and wonder if they miss me as much as i miss them. I have tried my hardest to reach out to them and i get nothing back and it leaves me so empty inside will i ever have friends!! am i meant to have real friends or am i meant to go though the rest of my life friendless!! i wish i knew.
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ReplyDeleteYou're not friendless. We all feel that way at times, and often enough for good reason, but I've been surprised: I've found that the people around you actually see a lot more of who you are inside, and what goes on around you, than even you do of yourself.
Whatever's going on, and however you feel at any given time, always know and remember that someone gives a damn. It might not always be obvious until after you'd think that it would have been nice of them to have said so earlier--but they're there, trust me (been there, done that, got the T-shirt).
It'll be ok.
This is why my house is a mess. No one comes over.... so why bother. I am basically friendless so endless cleaning seems fruitless to me.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry that you are continually plagued by the women who you though were your friends. I hope you find equally good friends to help heal your heart.
I am rite here!! I care!! ME, pick ME... too bad HERE is so dang far away. Because I know we could both use a hug right about now.
ReplyDelete~ Would you settle for virtual company, and coffee...( more clicking of keys, but alot less house cleaning ;)
not quite the same mind you, but something. And YES, even though I SUCK at communicating how I feel...Melissa and I would talk about how much we miss you, dang near everytime we talked! lol Three amiegos...love you dolly. Hang in there, sometimes its about all we can do.